Musings of an Old Curmudgeon
The musings and meandering thoughts of a crotchety old man as he observes life in the world and in a small, rural town in South East Nebraska. I hope to help people get to Heaven by sharing prayers, meditations, the lives of the Saints, and news of Church happenings. My Pledge: Nulla dies sine linea ~ Not a day without a line.
07 July 2026
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He Was an Opium Addict Who Couldn’t Receive the Sacraments. But He’s a Martyr and a Saint
His Feast is on Thursday. Let us pray that, like him, we may have the gift of final perseverance and, unlike him, receive the Last Sacraments before death.
From Aleteia
By Meg Hunter-Kilmer
St. Mark Ji Tianxiang couldn’t stay sober, but he could keep showing up.
St. Mark Ji Tianxiang was an opium addict. Not had been an opium addict. He was an opium addict at the time of his death.
For years, Ji was a respectable Christian, raised in a Christian family in 19th-century China. He was a leader in the Christian community, a well-off doctor who served the poor for free. But he became ill with a violent stomach ailment and treated himself with opium. It was a perfectly reasonable thing to do, but Ji soon became addicted to the drug, an addiction that was considered shameful and gravely scandalous.
As his circumstances deteriorated, Ji continued to fight his addiction. He went frequently to confession, refusing to embrace this affliction that had taken control of him. Unfortunately, the priest to whom he confessed (along with nearly everybody in the 19th century) didn’t understand addiction as a disease. Since Ji kept confessing the same sin, the priest thought, that was evidence that he had no firm purpose of amendment, no desire to do better.
Without resolve to repent and sin no more, confession is invalid. After a few years, Ji’s confessor told him to stop coming back until he could fulfill the requirements for confession. For some, this might have been an invitation to leave the Church in anger or shame, but for all his fallenness, Ji knew himself to be loved by the Father and by the Church. He knew that the Lord wanted his heart, even if he couldn’t manage to give over his life. He couldn’t stay sober, but he could keep showing up.
And show up he did, for 30 years. For 30 years, he was unable to receive the sacraments. And for 30 years he prayed that he would die a martyr. It seemed to Ji that the only way he could be saved was through a martyr’s crown.
In 1900, when the Boxer Rebels began to turn against foreigners and Christians, Ji got his chance. He was rounded up with dozens of other Christians, including his son, six grandchilden, and two daughters-in-law. Many of those imprisoned with him were likely disgusted by his presence there among them, this man who couldn’t go a day without a hit. Surely he would be the first to deny the Lord.
But while Ji was never able to beat his addiction, he was, in the end, flooded with the grace of final perseverance. No threat could shake him, no torture make him waver. He was determined to follow the Lord, who had never abandoned him.
As Ji and his family were dragged to prison to await their execution, his grandson looked fearfully at him. “Grandpa, where are we going?” he asked. “We’re going home,” came the answer.
Ji begged his captors to kill him last so that none of his family would have to die alone. He stood beside all nine of them as they were beheaded. In the end, he went to his death singing the Litany of the Blessed Virgin Mary. And though he had been away from the sacraments for decades, he is a canonized saint.
St. Mark Ji Tianxiang is a beautiful witness to the grace of God constantly at work in the most hidden ways, to God’s ability to make great saints of the most unlikely among us, and to the grace poured out on those who remain faithful when it seems even the Church herself is driving them away.
On July 9, the feast of St. Mark Ji Tianxiang, let’s ask his intercession for all addicts and for all those who are unable to receive the sacraments, that they may have the courage to be faithful to the Church and that they may always grow in their love for and trust in the Lord. St. Mark Ji Tianxiang, pray for us!
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An Important Day For Me
Today is the 81st anniversary of my parents' marriage. Dad (Perry Weismiller) was born on 11 February 1910 in Marysville, KS, and Mum (Doreen Louise Oxley) on 27 December 1923 in Horndean, Hants. They met when Dad was stationed as a PFC in Hq&Hq Sqdn, 8th USAAF, in High Wycombe, Bucks, and Mum was working in a war plant near there.
They were married in All Saints' Church, Catherington, Hants, on 7 July 1945. I was almost a second-anniversary present!Here is the Church where they were married, as it looks today.
And here is their wedding picture, taken in front of the church door. Immediately to the left of the bride is my Gran, Olive Elsie Victoria Brown Oxley, and to her left is my Auntie, Hazel Oxley Sluggett. The flower girl in front of Auntie Hazel is my cousin, Doreen Sluggett Kizer. To my Dad's extreme right is my Uncle, Albert Henry Oxley. I have no idea who the rest of the people are, though I'm sure Mum told me when I was a lad.
Dad died on 10 August 1952 in Marysville, KS. Mum passed on 27 November 2001 in Wichita, KS.
Please pray for the repose of their souls. Rest in peace, Mum and Dad. You are gone, but never forgotten.
RΓ©quiem Γ¦tΓ©rnam dona eis, DΓ³mine; et lux perpΓ©tua lΓΊceat eis. RequiΓ©scant in pace. Amen.
Memory Eternal!
On the Third Part of the Secret of FΓ‘tima: Introduction to Recent Scholarship
The Third Part of the Secret of FΓ‘tima is only controversial because the Vatican refuses to release it. Instead, they lie about having done so!
From One Peter Five
By Kevin J. Symonds, MA(Theol)
This vow is a little-known fact in her biography.
Part I: Summary of Biographical Details and Documentation
The third part of the Secret of FΓ‘tima has been one of the most controversial aspects of the message of Our Lady at FΓ‘tima. This controversy has been largely due to a shroud of mystery and intrigue that grew up around the text. I’d like to dive into and demystify some of this history so as to arrive at a surer grasp of the facts and better understand Our Lady’s message.
The mystery and intrigue surrounding the third part is rooted in human nature. The first line of Aristotle’s Metaphysics explains it well: “All men by nature desire to know.”[1] When the Secret was communicated to the three children (Lucia, Francisco and Jacinta) on July 13, 1917, the children did not hide the fact that there was something Our Lady had told them. It was impossible to hide because the vision of hell had frightened LΓΊcia so much that she had a visible reaction about which onlookers later asked her.[2] From this event, word had spread of the Secret and even the local administrator, Arturo dos Santos, made it a part of his interrogation of the children in August of 1917.[3]
Having been bound to silence on the Secret by Our Lady, the children maintained that silence (even against the threat of bodily harm). They talked about it amongst themselves when they were in private, but that was it. After the deaths of Francisco and Jacinta in 1919 and 1920 respectively, LΓΊcia remained to make Jesus and Mary more well-known and loved. She did this first as a Dorothean sister from 1925-1948 and then as a Carmelite nun from 1948 to her death in 2005.
LΓΊcia had the supernatural experiences of her childhood at the foundation of her formation. They did not make her a saint. As a nun, she was now learning the vow of obedience and how to practice it. This vow was emphasized by a personal vow of perfection she also made, but which is a little-known fact in her biography.[4] Having thus bound herself to perfection (and thus obedience) in a strict fashion, LΓΊcia practiced it very notably and this practice has an effect upon the writing down of the Secret, especially the third part.
LΓΊcia had been commanded by the Bishop of Leiria (FΓ‘tima), JosΓ© da Silva, to write down her memories of Jacinta and Francisco. From this order arose what are arguably the most famous of LΓΊcia’s writings, her I-IV Memoirs. In the first two, LΓΊcia tread carefully around the matter of the Secret. It wasn’t until the third Memoir that she wrote about it more in depth, and only because a supernatural intuition had been given to her by heaven that gave her permission to do so.
LΓΊcia wrote in the third Memoir that the Secret was comprised of three parts. The first was a vision of hell. The second was the devotion to the Immaculate Heart of Mary. The third, however, LΓΊcia said she did not have permission to write it down and so she would not say anything about it. Later, in the fourth Memoir, LΓΊcia provided a little more detail about the Secret, including a line that ended the second part of the Secret, and which later became quite famous: “In Portugal, the dogma of the Faith will always be preserved etc.”[5]
The Memoirs themselves were written under less-than-ideal circumstances. LΓΊcia’s role within the Dorothean religious community was that of a “coadjutrix sister.” Before the Second Vatican Council, it was common for religious orders to have two sets of members. One set did a lot of the grunt work while the other set handled a lot of the administrative and sacramental (in male religious communities) work. This distinction has largely fallen into abeyance after the Second Vatican Council’s decree Perfectae caritatis ordered that within communities of women, “care should be taken that there be only one class of Sisters.”[6]
As a coadjutrix sister, LΓΊcia was relegated to a lot of the housework or any other task to which she had been ordered by her superiors. Dorothean coadjutrix sisters were not expected to do a lot of writing. Their education was also not the most rigorous. LΓΊcia, however, was the seer of FΓ‘tima. As such, she was in demand by religious authorities and others. Being in such demand strained LΓΊcia’s religious life and observance. Moreover, the Dorotheans permitted letter-writing only on Sundays.[7] Any other document, if LΓΊcia had permission, had to be done away from the attention of the other sisters. Balancing the writing with her daily chores meant that LΓΊcia was often up late at night. She found an out of the way attic space with barely enough light to see.
Lastly, LΓΊcia never intended the Memoirs themselves for publication. They were written at Bishop JosΓ©’s order so that there would be a record for authorities from which to draw details. Parts of them could be (and were) published, but the original intent was not for complete publication. They were eventually published in full in 1973 by the Jesuit priest Fr. AntΓ³nio MarΓa Martins in the book MemΓ³rias e cartas da IrmΓ£ LΓΊcia. Sr. LΓΊcia had not given her permission, and she had been recommended to press legal charges against Fr. Martins. The two met and reconciled.[8]
Such are the conditions under which LΓΊcia wrote her Memoirs as well as the original intention behind them. The first two parts of the Secret are intimately connected with these conditions and are better understood within this context. In the next article, we’ll dive into the specifics of how the third part was composed.
[1] W.D. Ross (edit.), The Student’s Oxford Aristotle Vol. IV: Metaphysics (London: Oxford University Press, 1942), 980a.
[2] Cf. Fr. AntΓ³nio MarΓa Martins, S.J., MemΓ³rias e cartas da IrmΓ£ LΓΊcia (Porto, Portugal: SimΓ£o GuimarΓ£es, Filhos, LDA, 1973), 339.
[3] Ibid., 51-53, 145, 149-151, 155-157.
[4] Fr. Robert Fox and Fr. AntΓ³nio MarΓa Martins, S.J., The Intimate Life of Sister Lucia (Alexandria, South Dakota: Fatima Family Apostolate, 2001), 155-186.
[5] Martins, MemΓ³rias e cartas da IrmΓ£ LΓΊcia, 341.
[6] Perfectae caritatis, 15.
[7] Carmelo de Santa Teresa – Coimbra, Um caminho sob o olhar de Maria: Biografia da IrmΓ£ LΓΊcia de Jesus e do CoraΓ§Γ£o Imaculado, O.C.D. (Coimbra, Portugal:EdiΓ§Γ΅es Carmelo, 2013), 274.
[8] Cf. Fox and Martins, The Intimate Life of Sister Lucia, 12, 74-76; see also Fr. Luis Kondor, SVD (edit.), Fatima in Lucia’s Own Words, Volume II 5th and 6th Memoirs (FΓ‘tima: SantuΓ‘rio de FΓ‘tima, 2004), 8.



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